Where I've Been

Oct 14, 2020
3 min read

Hello! It’s me, Zahné and I am back and feeling better than ever. It’s been about a year since I stopped blogging and I am here to give you the full run down on where I have been and why I disappeared. Let’s get straight to it.

I believe I stopped writing on my blog about a year ago. I was in the process of getting my business, Bellini Bikini launched and I kind of went through a period of not knowing what I was doing, who I was, or what I even wanted to do next. I obviously knew I wanted to launch my brand, but when it came to almost everything else in my life, I had no clue. I started working as a personal trainer alongside my other job as an administrative assistant and I was honestly very unhappy. I used to be the girl who loved (and I mean LOVED) the gym so I decided, hey, may as well make some money teaching others about a huge passion of mine. Turns out, I love personal training, but it made me despise working out. I am not even sure what exactly made me not like it anymore. Maybe it was the fact that I was in a gym for 8 hours and then when it was time for me to work out, I just wanted to go home. I am not totally sure, but it really sucked when I stopped looking forward to the place that I practically lived at daily. Working out used to be an outlet for me to get out of my head and to stop thinking about whatever else was going on in my life. When I stopped working out consistently, I started to feel pretty shitty physically, and mentally. I stopped putting myself first and I stopped doing a lot of the things I loved like blogging, consistently spending time with friends, reading, being creative, etc.

Fast forward to March 2020, I launched Bellini Bikini and one week later, lockdown happened. I think this part of the story may deserve it’s own post so maybe I will get into that later, but you can just imagine what it is like to launch a swimwear brand when everyone’s spring breaks are being canceled. Not the best, but definitely a learning curve to say the least! During quarantine, I did a lot of reflecting and I realized that I needed to make a change. I needed to start implementing all of the things that I love back into my life. Obviously, I couldn’t see my friends as much as I would have liked, but I definitely made more of an effort to check in with them and talk to them more often. I also found out that I love pilates and that I can read books for fun (like Harry Potter) and not just to learn something. I for sure think that I have a ways to go when it comes to putting myself first but I know that I am on a good track. Re-launching my blog has been a lot of fun and I am really excited to have this space to be creative, and talk about anything and everything from the highs and lows of life to what products you should be buying from the Sephora VIB sale (post coming soon).

Stay tuned for what’s to come! I am so excited to be back.